New Dreams of The Heart

I'm inspired today. I woke up at 5:30 this morning after some wild dreams and a night of healing bodywork from a new 'magic'(al) friend. My sacrum was pumped, chakras were explored and my lower back was stretched.

I got home late,
nausea's from the late night bus ride,
tired from the energy exchange.

Dreamt of  running across the country as a middle aged man,
I was successful (as entrepreneur),
Staring out-the infinite desert before me,
Confidently knowing my direction
into the unknown.

I could see the
browns and rusty colored haze
in the distance.

The vast expanse
of nothing.
Mesas silhouetting the periphery.

Squinting, but seeing
with vision.

I've been here before,
mentoring a younger man (at my side)
the journey ahead.

I could see the desert,
It was all
d
o
w
n
h
i
l
l , from here.

Then I ran up ,
back in the other direction
imagining
'what could this be like, going uphill?'

I had never ran that way before.
It seemed difficult
in thought.

In my heart
I knew I could do that too.

The dream shifted;

I had just come up with the
NEW name for the
NEW Star Wars Virtual Movie.

The guy said,
"I think Free Change is the name!"

The movie
about; well,
Star Wars,
was about a computerized
space battle.

Only the programmers
forgot to write a 'bit' of code,
and there was a black hole
in space,
where ships
fell,
into
the
unknown.

I could see them
disappearing,
out of the screen.

Falling into this
one tiny bit
of nothing,
in interstellar space.
And disappearing.

Then,
A new code was written,
So they (ships)
could re-appear.

I remember
seeing
the code,
being written
on a screen,
in my dream.

Darth Vader was
being played by
Reggie Watts.

I remember having thoughts
after I woke up,
still in darkness-
That if i don't write these dreams down,
and try to remember them
when i get out of bed,
next;
That I won't.
Or, I might not?
I may not go into lucidity.

The thought,
the dream,
it must be cleared
to allow
s p a c e
for what I
intuited
would be next.

Context for this post:
Last week I lucid dreamed.
I was flying in Hawaii.
Completely clear that I was in a dream,
I flew.
I felt the feelings of freedom,
soaring in the sky,
overlooking the ocean,
ecstasy.

That dream came after 
writing down
a previous dream,
fresh,
just occured,
about a movie-
or a screenplay..
'The ballerina who flew upside-down'
(I wrote it all down that night)

Then dreamt about
flying
in Hawaii.

So,
tonight-
I felt the urge,
the intuition,
to write down my
dream,
so that I may access
whatever was to follow,
without attachment
to remember.

Make sense?

What came next?
I didn't fall back asleep.
I dreamt though.
Awake and inspired,
I have an idea!

(god, this post is long?)

What if I made my didgeridoo album as a dvd with music videos? What if I created a dvd and documentary called, 'Why We Didg' about didg players and why we love this instrument, bringing light and awareness to the world on this instrument. The movie would be clips of didg players and their process with the instrument. It would contain brilliant tracks of them playing with visuals of their life. Along with it, a cd with recordings, separate from the music in the dvd?

You see, I'm doing a project right now. The project is my life and the content (or one piece of it) is a didgeridoo album. Initially going to be a didgeridoo sound cd for yoga classes; I lay awake this morning in bed, inspired by recent dreams and having total access to creativity, that in my heart lay dormant newer and truer ideas more closely connected to my Self.

A yoga music cd sounded like a good idea at some point in the past, and now was this thing I was holding onto, that i had to create so i could market and sell a product which would give me money and opportunity to buy a vw bus and do workshops at yoga studios all over the land. A good idea in theory, I haven't been jazzed about making it or even knowing what it would sound like or even if i wanted to make yoga/didgeridoo/chanting sounds, i've been sitting with the thought of; what kind of sound and didgeridoo project do i REALLY want to create, that is an expression of ME and that feels fun and inspiring. 


One that is bigger, in my heart, than a good idea, from my mind.


That's when i came to the idea above... Which also can lead to the same place in my dreams and visions of how I want my life to look, based in travel and a product that is mine, that i love! This makes greater sense to me now... Of course one would want to follow the creative dreams connected to the heart. I thought, what if i created my product, my creation-my album based on the initial thoughts and visions of something that i wasnt connected to while making? What if i had a final product that wasn't what I really wanted to make bc it was connected to a past-based idea that was no longer serving me, or was with me.

Well, then that would be mad! I would have to rep a cd which wasn't a true expression of me, maybe show up in yoga classes and play/perform songs that weren't in my heart or maybe even have a finished product that I didn't want any longer and would scrap altogether to create the project I am going to make. That would be a waste of time, and is connected to being attached to an idea that I may think sounds good and does sound good but isn't really me.

I will create my project and my dream based on my heart and let the process unfold without knowing what it will be like or sound like or look like even. Because today, i begin recording!

More to come on this.

B~

Our flyer is now completed and plans are in the making for the next ShakitKura Healing Lounge to be held on Saturday, November 12th at Flying Yoga Shala in Oakland, CA.


Our first event was most successful. We had so many people come out and share their energy and grace with us. Not to mention the wonderful healers who offered body work, acupuncture, astrology readings, custom flower essence readings, sound healing and natural food vending!


We are gearing up for the 2nd ShaktiKura and event details can be found on facebook by clicking the word, OOooOOoooOOOOOH!


Entrance is just $10 and tips are suggested for bodywork sessions.


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Comet Elenin and The Comet Elenin Diner, now open!

Have you heard about Comet Elenin set to make its orbit next week?
Locals and many bay area astrology enthusiasts are talking nonsense which ranges that it's travel through our solar system will create certain doom, to conspiracy of President Obama's hiding in a bunker on September 27th, the day it's supposedly closest to Earth. 


Others more middle ground are blaming the comet presence on recent disputes and flares in their current relationships...

Comet Elenin Diner

Although one thing you may not have heard is about the new all organic vegan diner opening on the comet. Owner and aliens from the potentially habitable super-Earth, officially called HD 85512 b decided to take refuge on the comet and start a business in the attempts of creating interplanetary cooperation.


All food is sourced locally from the planet and includes native plant-based morsels like their vegan critter-crawler wraps to their tossed kurilian salad infused with blue-green and red pigments from the oil of their prized boo-boo-gee seed.



Owners Max and Starlight Shwartz-Kleinfelder are optimistic on the opening of their diner, properly called, 'Comet Elenin' and have began a soft-launch to nearby planets and constellations on the comets' path.
"We're hopeful the word gets out and centian beings from all over can come and enjoy a meal together in peace" says Max Kleinfelder.


The unbroadcasted announcement of the diner has already been picked up on earth through feeds, tweets, posts and updates.


Although recent talk from Earth's NASA that the comet is breaking up in space doesn't worry the Kleinfelders, "We're gonna make it all the way back to HD 85512 b!"


Although they aren't sure how to get back just yet, and again, remain optimistic.

Chapter Close.

I think I'm going to change my blog title and content, for the second time since it's incarnation over a year ago.

I'm settling into living in the bay now. Not wandering around on this house-to-house adventure any longer in search and in hopes of moving, maybe, to Los Angeles.

L.A. story is complete.

So, even though that my life is totally vibrant and full of color, with rich interactions and meandering turns without myself even knowing where I may get whisked away to next--I'm staying put. But that's to say I will still be wandering around they bay and I'm going to change my blog/website up.

Now the question is what shall it be called? What am I up to now? --That I do know. Integration.

Last night while laying in bed to the dark blue-grey light settling into my room as the sun's setting passed I had a realization... And it moved me! I feel the last 4 years of moving around and searching is coming to a close. Since I left Philly in October of '07 to now; living in New York, New Jersey, Hawaii and California. Going from job to job to job. Starting projects, destroying projects, starting projects and tearing down the walls. I was hurt and frustrated that the inspiration would leave and the desire to work with my ideas and plans never surfaced, never rooted. My heart broke repeatedly. I continued to dance and discover, play and heal. Endurance was built, patience, trust and faith that some-thing would show up eventually b/c my heart is committed to making a difference. I never gave up on that knowing.

Coming to California was an experiment and a test all in one. An experiment to let myself go, completely unwind and free to enact OUT the stuff that was showing up IN-side my heart and ego, and the patterns and past that took over my commitments to grow and be a pioneer in my world.  The test was to endure the chatter and withstand the heat and chaos of uncertainty. LA or the bay took me over. And it was just a conversation based in the past that was feeding needingly the desire to run. And run I did.

Out here it was that I distinguished how long it was that I've been running. A LONG TIME! Like, over 20 years. Since I was a kid, rebelling and fighting with the system and the flow of my life. Judging it, thinking it should be different and not giving room for me to be me.

We can now call this-complete.

Now-it's time to bring all the work forth I've been playing with and experiencing on deep levels to the surface to build and grow. Stability never looked so good. It's something I can feel inside myself, a deep knowing that a period is ending. The period of my marathon run. I've reached the finish line of that race, and now am setting foot for a new journey, a journey of long endurance, a nice hike meandering around a path that still may be unclear, but I've got a walking stick and soon a guide to walk with, slowly, steadily, building and rooting into myself. The journey of working. Working my job, working with my art, working with people in relationships and sticking around!

It felt good to feel that. Real good. LIke, REally GOod!

~B

Staying Put

So I'm gonna stay in the bay. After a rough week in LA and realizing that my community is right here, right now it came to me on the I-5 North drive to sunrise on my way back up here that this is my home.

So I'm not sure when I will be living in Los Angeles if at all? I am still open to it but one thing that is ringing true for me right now is to get myself grounded and start making money and being of service to my community, stepping up; which is something that came to me in Vipassana very strongly.

So I am now wanting to be of service for peoples health and wellness and am offering donation-based health counseling.

I will give you a session and a half (90 minutes-$150 dollars of value) for any amount you wish to pay.

Learn more about your health and how to become healthier and stronger on your own food journey by learning macrobiotics, ayurveda and chinese medicine principals along with energetics of food and seasonal eating and cleansing techniques.

Whatever is needed for your own unique 'bioindividuality' -which means your own unique you-ness, we will discuss and go over so you can gradually incorporate healthier options into your day without guilt or worry.
If you would like to take this step, the paypal button below and on the right side tool bar of this blog and you can make any donation. I will then contact you and send you a health history to be filled out and we will schedule a time to talk or to meet in person.

I'm here for you!

~B

Surrendering In The Void

When it hurts, and there's pain.. find the space between identifying and understanding.. towards nothingness, no-thing, no me, no my, no I, no mine.. and create awareness and practice being there.. Surrendering inside this nothingness, in the void that isn't self or identity, it's just space-present moment-now.

~B